Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Heart Failure 1


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11/20/07 t 11am hst jsa m living New i LOG
HEART FAILURE
HAS BEEN DEEP INSIDE MY ALASKIAN FRIEND, JESS, WHO IS ALSO ON THIS REVOLUTION HAWAII 07-08 TEAM
Do you ever feel so upset, at life, or even at God?
I told my white pastry potato chili rice corn beef pinnaple Jess Franklin that I agree. I feel bad at times. Even right now. The whole team is going through many things. I need heart transplant. Jess agreed. But this is weird. She is the heart of the team. But her struggles are unique but also similar to even you.
DON'T LIVE IN-BETWEEN YOUR HEART BEATS
WE ARE NOTHING IN BETWEEN OUR HEART BEAT. OUR WHOLE LIFE IS OFTEN LIVED IN BETWEEN THE HEART BEATS. IT SEEMS LIKE FOREVER. BUT ANOTHER HEART BEAT IS COMING. LET GOD BE THE HEART, THE DOCTOR, THE BEAT, THE SOUL, THE INSPIRATION, AND THE LAUGH BEYOND ANYTHING
How have you lived in between the heart beats?
I simple forget who I was, who I am, and who I becoming. I forget where I am in life and how I got there. I forget about the miracles that have come in my daily life. And how God is using the terrors of the past as blessings for the future.
HORRIBLE AND EXCITING IS RVOLUTION HAWAII
I AWAKE TIRE, MANY TIMES. I WILL HATE OTHERS. I WILL HATE GOD. I WILL GET MAD AT MYSELF. I WILL GET MAD AT EVERYTHING. BUT SOMETHING DEEP INSIDE ME STOPS ME FROM BLOWING UP
What is going on deep inside?
You are what you eat. I eat oatmeal. But spiritually, I eat what I think about. I eat what I believe, feel, and know. But deep inside are spiritual building blocks. I am suppose to have a tall block tower but sometimes my blocks are knocked down. But I know that everybody has these blocks in their lives. AND REVOLUTION IS HAPPENING. GOD IS CHANGING ME. SORRY BUT IT IS TRUE. AND IT IS EXCITING. AND I DO NOT UNDERSTAND HOW IT HAPPEN. IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME THEN I WILL PRAY FOR YOU. SORRY. BUT REALLY.
WE GOTTA BUILD EACH OTHER'S BLOCKS
I need to build each other up, as if they are a tower, and encourage them. Instead of bad things of knocking their blocks down. That is life. I need spiritual CPR. I need a transplant. I need a donor. Jesus is my man. He had open heart surgery on the cross, many years ago. And Jesus offers his heart for yours.

MY HEART FAILS
BUT THE HEART OF JESUS WILL NOT
I PUPPY-EYE, FROWN LIP, HEART-WARM OUT TO JESUS, MY MAN

WITH THE PLAN FOR MY LIFE, OF YESTERDAY, FOR TODAY, FOR TOMMOROW, EVEN WHEN I FEEL LIKE MUD, AND

THAT IS WORTH DYING FOR!
BETTER YET, IT IS WORTH LIVING FOR.

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